Which movie or book character are you most like, and why?
Interesting question. It depends on who other people have told me I resemble in stories, and who I think I'm more akin to. Keri used to tell me that I'm like Jack on Lost; she said that I need someone to rescue in order to be happy. That I need someone to help in order to gain fulfillment from life. And that I will make myself unhappy in my pursuit of that need even though I may know there's a simpler way. I'll stand up for my ethics even though it's a losing battle. I was kinda pissed off by that at first. Then I realized that she's kind of right. At the end of the series, Jack dies fighting "Locke" and saves his friends and the island. If that's how I've got to go out to bring meaning to my life, so be it. Nature, I suppose, always has some kind of backup plan.
If it's my opinion that carries more weight, I think I'm like more like Dante in the Inferno. Yes, there's the obvious reference to going through Hell to find the love I've lost, and we know I'm more than willing to do that, so that's not what I'm talking about. More that I thought I knew everything before my journey started. I'm constantly surprised and disappointed by mankind. I feel that every year is another lesson, or group of lessons for me to learn, and hopefully when I meet the devil, I can walk back out of Hell keeping everything I've learned with me.
This brings up another interesting point:
The bible states that we will burn or bask in the fires of Hell or the Clouds in Heaven respectively, and I understand the philosophy behind that. It's been hammered in there since I was old enough to be scared of the boogeyman. Isn't it possible, and in my opinion very likely, that we're interpreting the various translations of a 2000 year old book a bit too fucking literally? For instance, the concept of "eternity". Without knowledge of the beyond (space and stars and time) isn't it far more likely that the concept of eternity was based on our knowledge of the beyond at the time in history (confined to life and beyond that). Basically what I'm saying is that with only a rudimentary understanding of how to gauge concepts as "the beginning of time", and "for all time" were only understood with the most basic comprehension. Think of the "magic" we could show those people if we traveled through time and showed them what we as men and women simply "know" from childhood. Imagine that comparison. Now imagine that we could explain to them that we are not Gods, or angels, or demons, or from the stars, but people, frail, mortal human beings just as they are, and that they too, could learn to control their environment. How different life may be now.... perhaps man would have spent the last 2000 years studying the universe instead of trying to to figure out which God was right about what happens after we die. No one has come back to say who's right. Not anyone that I would stand to speak to for more than 8 or 9 seconds anyway.
I guess what I'm trying to come back to is that the bible is meant to be a collection of educating fables and stories from which we derive morals. I'm sure all that new testament stuff is pretty close to what happened in real life, or at least, has become a parable of reality. The old testament, however, is more likely a guidebook on how to behave. Someone saw how awful humans are without a guideline and wrote the freaking bible. All s/he had to be was smarter than most people around him/her. How many of us feel like that today, like we're smarter than most of the people standing to our lefts and rights? I think most people do and that's because individuals are intelligent. Groups are stupid and will buy into anything if the pitch is good. Think of animals. It's much harder to get a prey animal to feel safe one on one with a predator. But if there's a group of prey, they relax because of the illusion of relative safety in numbers. In reality, it's just group reassurance, and if they aren't careful, predators will just pick them off bit by bit. Religion does the same thing. Catches groups, and even if they only pick off one or two, those two will go back and infect the pack.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is that my new interpretation of "eternity" merely means the rest of my conscious, corporeal life, since nothing after death has been proven. So, if you don't follow the "commandments" or guidelines, you will find unhappiness for "eternity" and life it out in Hell. That sounds about like what we deal with in life anyway, doesn't it? So lemme get this right, if you follow the guidelines, you will have a better life and then find peace for eternity, however, if you disregard how people should treat each other, you'll find Hell. That sounds pretty accurate to me these days. I'm not religious, but I do consider myself somewhat spiritual. I hate organized religions. Fuck your dogmas. I don't care what any of you believe! Do what you will, as long as you aren't hurting people actively. Those who allow themselves to be roped in will have to find their own way out because we like-minded thinkers can not, and will not try to save you all. Let me live as I will and stop knocking on my door every Saturday morning. And stop bringing your doe-eyed, hypnotized offspring with you. They look like hungry mice.